Thursday, 30 March 2017

ZAKIE'S 2016 SKETCH BOOK [Part 1]


Assalamualaikum



What's up you guys ! Have you read my latest entry about one of my historical day AKA SPM result giveaway? If you dont , then click the hyperlink down below.


So today , I want to exposed my 2016 sketch book *bukan main haha* nah , actually I want to show some of my artwork/doodles that I made in 2016 . There's some people asking me what kind of sketch book that I use for all my drawing . I usually don't stick to one brand like others artists because what important for me is the quality of the paper . So , my 2016 sketch book I bought it from Popular and the size is A5 . I don't really like draw in a big size of paper because it will lead me to procrastinate to finish the drawing . It's cost me around RM10 or less *dah lupa* . I not sure if it's available in every Popular branches but one thing that I acknowledge is every Popular that I have been had a different type of sketch book . So , my advice if you want to buy one just make sure the thickness of the paper is good enough to you use all the pens that you have because if you buy a sketch book that have below 100 gsm , the ink will get through the pages . For me , I'd choose a sketch book that have 200 gsm and above eventhough it's a little bit pricey.

This is my last year sketch book . Sorry for my really "good" idea to cover up the cover so you guys can't see what type it is.


Without further a due , lets we get started . Oh , little infomation I bought this sketch book 1 week *rasanya* before I sat for my Trial SPM . So most of the time i will draw instead of doing revision *haha* . I'm not gonna show you all of my artwork from this sketch book but I will pick the best of the best *because most of my artwork looked horrendous >_< * 

This is actually one of my #inktober drawing and this is day 3


 This also is my #inktober drawing and this was day 5


pretty Lit ha? I just discovered the term so I doodled it . #inktober day 4


 This is special because it's my twin sister name and for those who named Masturah.


 I made this when I was at home and didn't go to school because I had fever . My school's iconic building . You can google it SMK Sultan Yussuf.


 Again my sister! I loved them so I made them in a doodle version . Please forgive me for the weird body posture , hand gesture because I just failed on that SMH


 When you got Masturah you have to get Maisarah too ! My other twin sister name and for those who named Maisarah too . 


I really like this artwork because I made it 25 days before SPM where usually other student are currently with their book in their hands * ke tak? haha *

 This one very random , I was at Seremban and didn't have internet connection so what should I do? Draw


This is last artwork and I made it on school holiday last year . Nothing special about it.


I think that's all about my enrty for this time . Actually I do have a few more artwork/doodles form 2016 sketch book but I just think that it will be hard for you guys load all the picture if I put all them together . So , if you like these type of entry please give a comment down below and tell me which one is your favourite so I know people actually like this and I gonna make the part 2.

Assalamualaikum n bye peeps!


p/s : Click HERE to see my previous artwork  that I made.

Monday, 27 March 2017

Result SPM 2016 : Berduka atau Gembira ?





 Assalamualaikum dan selamat sejahtera semua . Ada ke lagi orang baca blog ni ? Tak kisah la ada ke takda tapi malam ni aku nak share pengalaman mengambil result spm pada 16.3.2017 yang lepas. Alhamdullilah semuanya berjalan lancar dan aku pun dah redha dengan keputusan yang diperolehi.

- Seminggu sebelum hari kejadian -

Sebelum pergi ke hari kejadian aku nak cerita seminggu sebelum hari result . Apa yang boleh aku ceritakan pasal hari result spm ni , kalau tiada sesiapa yang buka topik pasal result nervous tu memang takda langsung , tapi bila once sorang dah buka mulut cerita pasal macam mana result , tak nervous ke , apa semua tu habis la , sepanjang hari tu akan duk terfikir apalah nasib result . Ada beberapa hari dalam seminggu tu aku merajinkan diri search #spm2016 dekat twitter . Sebab apa? takda motif , saja-saja mungkin boleh hilang nervous kot . Banyak tweet daripada budak-budak spm 2016 ni yang lawak-lawak , bolehla nak gelak-gelak sikit sampailah bila aku nampak ada orang tweet baseline markah untuk semua kertas spm , and I was like....

BIAR BETUL! *emoji terkejut*


Tapi aku teringat balik cikgu ada cakap , yang orang duk post baseline markah jangan percaya sangat , doa je banyak-banyak . Jadi aku pun cuba tenangkan diri balik dan tutup twitter terus lulz. Lepastu rasanya 2 hari sebelum ambil result , terdetik hati nak google pengalaman orang lain ambil result spm HAHA . Banyak blogger yang share pengalaman diaorang masa nak ambil result . Banyak jugaklah blog yang aku baca sampai lewat malam kot . Ada yang keputusan spm-nya bagus , ada yang so-so , ada juga yang tak reveal pun keputusan spm-nya . 

Bila aku buka twitter je , penuh dengan tweet daripada kawan-kawan aku minta orang wish gud luck la , mohon yang terbaik la masa ambil result nanti , dan macam-macam lagi . Aku adalah juga tweet tapi tweet-tweet aku takdalah obivious pasal nak ambil result spm nanti ada orang DM plak lepas ambil result tu HEHE.

 - Di hari kejadian -

Malam sebelum nak ambil result tu aku tak boleh tidur *tak pernah-pernah* aku tidur awal dalam pukul 11 macam tu , lepastu bangun pukul 12 . Masa tu rasa macam dah lama tidur sedangkan baru sejam . Tapi aku lelap balik dan bangun balik pukul 3 macam tu . Alang-alang dah bangun terus aku buat solat tahajud , hajat semua sekali . Lepastu mama gerak bangun untuk subuh . Pagi tu mama ada hal jadi tak boleh ikut aku pergi ambil result , sama dengan ayah aku . Jadi yang meneman aku ialah kakak kedua aku , Angah . Kiteorang naik motor asing-asing sebab aku mungkin balik lambat sikit nak jumpa cikgu-cikgu lepas ambil result tu .

Kami pun bertolak dalam pukul 9:30 macam tu sebab result keluar dalam pukul 10:00 pagi . Sampai je dewan tengok kosong lagi , ada beberapa pelajar je termasuk aku . Lepastu aku terjumpa kawan sekelas aku . Terus ajak dia masuk dewan cari tempat duduk . Masuk dalam dewan tu , rupanya banyak booth-booth IPTS sedang memanti lepasan SPM ni nak ambil result . Aku adalah isi borang untuk KPTM *dah dia hulur takkan nak tolakkan..*

Masa berlalu sampailah pukul 10:00 tapi pengetua tak sampai-sampai lagi . Pelajar -pelajar dengan parents semakin ramai memenuhi dewan termasuklah kawan-kawan rapat aku macam izzati , waie , fadhil , amirin , syafi'ina dan ramai lagi . Sementara menunggu tu tiba-tiba kawan aku waie bagitahu yang result dia dengan syafi'ina dah leaked *lawak pulak bila fikir sekarang* guru kelas kiteorang post dekat dalam group whatsapp . Aku pun macam " eh eh result aku ada tak!? " tapi sayangnya cikgu post result untuk 3 orang je . Kawan aku waie tu dapat 2 A manakala syafi'ina dapat 6A . Syafi'ina dah menangis-nangis call mak dia sebab dia dah tahu result . Manakala aku pulak , ternanti-nanti menunggu pengetua sampai . Masa ni memang nervous habis weh .


Orang yang ditunggu - tunggu telah sampai , maka bermulalah acara penyerahan keputusan spm . Tahun ni tiada pelajar yang mendapat straight A . Terkejut jugaklah aku sebab kawan aku adalah salah seorang pelajar target untuk dapat straight A . Aku tak kisah sangat sebab tahu memang bukan kemampuan aku untuk dapat straight A . Pengetua pun panggil nama pelajar yang mendapat 7A ke atas ambil result di atas pentas dan.....

Takda nama aku *AGAK DAH* -_-"

"Pelajar-pelajar lain boleh memungut keputusan spm masing-masing di kaunter di tepi dewan " kata pengacara majlis . Aku dengan kawan-kawan yang lain semua pergi ke kaunter kelas kami nak ambil result. Seingat aku , result aku bertindih dengan 2 orang classmate aku . Bila tiba masa aku cikgu pun tercari-cari nama aku dan....

HA ! DAH JUMPA...

Ni zaki keputusan awak *hulur result* . Terus mata aku melilau tengok-tengok ada yang gagal atau tak kredit . Alhamdullilah semuanya kredit . Lepastu melilau lagi kira berapa yang A berapa yang B dan berapa yang C . Wuish , not bad *puji diri sendiri* >_< . Aku terus menuju ke Angah jumpa dia sambil nangis sikit *buat malu je* Lepastu aku dengan angah pergi luar nak call mama kemudian nak tangkap gambar . Eh korang nak tengok ke result aku? Em em nak?


Alhamdullilah walaupun result biasa-biasa je.


Banyak yang aku tak expect dalam result ni dan kalau nak cerita memang tak cukup satu entry , ini pun dah panjang . Tapi yang paling aku nak highlight disini adalah keputusan Pend.Seni Visual aku . Aku dapat A+ . Seperti mimpi menjadi realiti . Aku memang target untuk Pend.Seni aku nakkan A+ dan alhamdullilah tercapai . Matematik , subjek yang paling aku tak suka , aku dapat C . Untuk pelajar macam aku , C memang lebih dari cukup untuk Matematik sebab masa paper math tempoh hari aku memang less confident nak jawab sebab soalan semua susah2 dan pelik2 . Apa pun semuanya Allah dah tetapkan. 




Kelihatan seketul potato bersama resultnya. :3

Apa yang boleh aku simpulkan ialah keputusan apa pun yang korang dapat , berapa A yang korang dapat . You guys should be proud with what you achieved sebab SPM bukan senang lagi-lagi untuk batch-batch yang akan datang . Soalan semakin susah dan susah . Jadi bila terima result , belajar untuk redha dengan ketentuan Allah dan setiap yang berlaku mesti ada hikmah disebaliknya . Allah bagi kite sesuatu bukan suka-suka tau , mesti ada ibrah disebaliknya . 


OKAY SPM DAH SETTLE...HMMM LEPAS NI NAK SAMBUNG MANA EH?
- next entry-

Monday, 16 January 2017

Living with STUTTER (gagap)

Assalamualaikum


As you guys read the tittle , today I gonna share my experience , emotion about how is living with stutter or in malay known as GAGAP . I never thought that I will write about this because most of the time I insecure about my stutter and don't want to talk about it , but recently I found this guy who had a same problem with me named Drew Lynch . So he is one of the finalist in American Got Talent (AGT) season 10 and make it to 2nd place. He is a comedian who has severe stutter . Mine is not bad as him but I still can relate with his problem.




I've lived with stutter since I was born and the only time I realized that I have stutter when I was 5 kinda *lol I forgot* So , living with stuttering is HARD . Before I going too far , I want to mention that my stuttering level isn't that bad but it still keep me low confidence and anxiety . I have a stutter that makes me hard to pronounce certain word . Either in Bahasa Malaysia or English . Yup , this problem really disturb me when I was in school since I had to make a presentation or read a passage out from textbook and things always didn't went well . But , my one and only solution for this problem is finding a word that has a same meaning but more easy to me pronounce it. I'm not even kidding guys , whenever I did presentation , I always have a book or paper with me and when its the time to say the "word" I will cover up my face because the struggling to pronounce the word will lead me to make a weird face expression until I can pronounce the word .


not exactly like this but kinda...*heh*


Second things I wanna share with you guys is my stutter will get worst when I talk loud or fast . Because of that I tend to talk in a slow volume and talk slowly but not everyone understand what I lived with so this shit always happened...

"weh , cakap ah kuat sikit , tak macam lelaki"


For the first time I kinda got pissed with these people that don't understand what actually going about myself but then I get used to it and just silent whenever someone said that . When I said talk slowly , I mean I will talk by pronounce the word sebutir-sebutir or if the stutter gonna happen I will put "aaa" or "ummm" between the word that I might stutter . Example..

"Kak ummm 5 ringgit no 6 eh "

That situation always happen when I go to gas station . Another way I covered my stutter is with saying that I forgot the things. I always do this because its worked every time I going to stutter and it looked more natural , hahaha . Let me give the example..

the word that I might stutter is : Kedai Muthu

eg : Alaa beli je dekat kedai *noticed I gonna stutter* ummm kedai yang sebelah farmasi tu , yang owner dia india tu...

Hahahaha , you got it? . maybe its seems a little hard to you guys get what I mean , but if you guys with me and having a conversation , you will see I do it a lot of times because of my stutter.

The next things that I hate is having a small talk . I appreciate that you want to have a small conversation with me but I just more prefer sit and silent until I reached to my destination if I was in a bus or taxi.Even when I went to like shopping mall or any places , then someone come up to me and want to ask something or just being nice to me , sorry I didn't mean to be rude or arrogant . It just I'm dealing with my problem . Because of that it lead to my social anxiety . I really get nervous when someone try to talk with me because I scared my stutter will attack me at that time . I wish I don't have stutter so I can chit chatting with everyone without any hesitate . When I pickup a call , the same thing would happen . My anxiety + stuttering will hold me up and made me hesitate to pickup the call .

camni ha dia punya nervous 


Now lets talk about my emotion facing this god gift to me . Like I mention before , I got insecure about my stuttering . I just scared if people judge about how I talk . To make the situation even worst , some people always mock me when I stutter . Its just HURT that no one understand . People tend to mocking me while I trying to act cool even though my heart already shattered into pieces. But , since I knew Drew Lynch *actually I got knew him today* he changed my perspective about my little problem because he do a stand up comedy even though he have a stutter . You guys should check his videos at his channel , click here .

Most of the part that I quite disappointed were about our society that doesn't have awareness about stutter . The only things that they do is mocking us or just laughing at us . I never meet anyone that has a same problem with me but I loved to . Sometimes I imagined how would I response if I in the live tv interview or talking to my crush , did I will stutter or I will stay quiet awkwardly? haha no one know. I really hope for those who read this entry and have a friend that stutter , please and please respect him/her . Don't mock them or talk about stutter with them publicly and lastly if you guys want to introduce your stutter friends , just talk like this..

"Weh ni kawan aku , dia stutter so yeah be nice to him/her"


Tak payah guna gagap , macam tak cool . hehehehe. See you guys in the next entry . InshaALLAH.



Assalamualaikum n bye peeps!


*sorry if my English is bad , I still practicing it*